The Household of God

I really hate disappointing people.  Regardless of how small or big the offense, I hate knowing that my actions, words, lack of action--whatever it may be--have let someone down.  I am also not a fan of conflict. (I almost put "hate" conflict, but I am learning to see it as opportunity for growth and change; it's not all bad when looked at it that way).

Anyways, when I find myself in conflict with someone, it is hard for me to think about anything else.

My mind and heart are distracted, my energy is drained, my effectiveness in any other area is significantly lessened.

As uncomfortable as those feelings are, I think they are important because they remind us that God doesn't desire for those broken relationships to remain as they are; He desires unity, peace, reconciliation.

I mean, just look at the cross.

Undoubtedly, that was all Jesus thought about in the weeks, days, moments leading up to His betrayal, arrest, and crucifixion.

Think for a moment about the people that Jesus had experienced "conflict" with leading up to the cross--Judas, Peter, the high priest, the soldiers, the people who spat on him and mocked him, on and on.

And what did Jesus do?

He died for them.  He asked that the Father would forgive them as they were right in the middle of beating him, humiliating him, denying him, breathing threats against him. 

He thought about how burdened his soul was, but He also knew what would be accomplished for all mankind.

Unity between Jew and Gentile.

Peace between God and Man and peace among men.

Reconciliation from what was broken and lost in the Garden of Eden. 

So, He drank the fullness of the cup.

And everything changed.

The way I approach conflict is completely different now because of Jesus, especially with other believers.

I don't have the option to leave things broken and messed up between brothers and sisters in Christ.  That doesn't mean we will always agree on every point.  But, if we both claim to love, follow and submit to Jesus Christ, that means we always have the means and the motivation to overcome whatever peace-squelching division exists between us.

Sadly, we all know that divisions still exist.  We have all seen the painful effects of broken relationships between believers. 

And yet, the Church is what God chose to reveal Himself and His character to the world.  He could have used any means.  And He chose the broken, messy, often-failed relationships between His people to be what would declare His love and what would mark His people as His disciples.

"By this all people will know that you are my disciples,

if you have love for one another."

John 13:35

And He even chose that the Church would be a display of His glory from the foundation of the world. 

"...through the Church the manifold wisdom

of God might now be made known to the rulers and authorities

in the heavenly places.  This was according to the eternal purpose that he

has realized in Christ Jesus our Lord." 

Ephesians 3:10-11

But, maybe that's the whole point after all.

Maybe the fact that we are broken and messy and often divided would show His glory and power and love even more.  That we serve a God who uses brokenness for beauty, pain for purpose, division for divine reasons continually leaves me stunned. But, in Him using broken people to march forth His Kingdom, He receives much glory. And when He restores a broken relationship through the Cross, His power is clearly seen. 

He's building a household of Jews, Gentiles, slaves, free, men, women--all on the foundation of Jesus Christ--the only foundation upon which all peoples find unity and a common place to stand.  He's shaping each of us, chiseling away our anger and hatred and selfishness, so that we might come together as His household.  One that, while imperfect, points undeniably to the Savior who fixes broken things and in which God Himself might dwell.  

"You are fellow citizens with the saints and members of the household of God, built on the foundation of the apostles and prophets, Christ Jesus himself being the cornerstone, in whom the whole structure, being joined together, grows into a holy temple in the Lord. In him you also are being built together into a dwelling place for God by the Spirit." Ephesians 2:19-22

Detached

That is how I feel right now.

Separate. Disconnected. Removed.

Some people thrive off of time alone. While I do need that alone time to recharge every once in a while, I am most often recharged being around people.

I am an external processor--which is hard to do by yourself.

Absolute quiet makes me want to go crazy, while being around the chaos of kids or family fills my heart.

All this to say, I'm what most would call a "people person."

Since March, I have been living by myself. Well, with 2 cats--but we all know that doesn't count, right? (Yes, I've become the infamous "single woman with all her cats" at the age of 23).

There are no other people. Nobody to talk to about my day or hear about theirs. Nobody to cook dinner for or bake cookies for. And after 6 months of living alone, I realize how much I really don't like it.

Having lived with roommates or other families or in various homes in the Czech Republic and everywhere in between, I was ready for a "break" to have my own space. So, when this opportunity came up to live in this home by myself, I thought it was ideal. And, it has been a huge blessing in many ways.

But, there's something missing in not having people around. As hard as it was to share a room with another girl (or 2 or 3), there's something refreshing about it (and it makes you clean out your closet a whole lot more than usual). I try to have people over as often as possible, but it's just not the same as having another presence right here in the house.

More than anything, I miss the fellowship that being around others brings. God created us to live in community. It's what He uses to refine us, encourage us, challenge us, humble us, and most importantly, make us more like Jesus Christ.

I would venture to say that nearly every command in Scripture given to us involves other people, or at the very least is best implemented in our dealings with others.   For example--being kind or patient or humble is easy when we are not accountable to anyone and are not affecting anyone in our unkindness, impatience or pride. It is so easy to become quickly deceived about who I am when it's just me, myself and I. And in this sense, it is far too easy to begin to think that I am kind or patient or humble when I am alone.

Because, after all...Who's going to tell me I'm wrong?

So, all this rambling has no purpose other than being reminded of and thankful for the way that our Creator has made us--for relationship. Yes, it gets messy at times and often feels like it's not worth the trouble. But, let me tell you--as one who has been walking likely the most "detached from relationships" path I have ever walked in my short life--it is worth it for what it produces in and through us. And it is the means that our Creator has wisely chosen to mold us into His likeness.

For me in this season, He's molding this people-person type of girl using the opposite means--by being alone more than I'd ever wish to be.  I'm learning how to be okay with the quiet and how to make the most of those moments between just the Lord and me.  I'm learning to choose to be refreshed by spending time in His Word and in fellowship with Him rather than always surrounding myself with people.  Because the beautiful thing about God is that He always has so much more for us--more to learn about Him, others and ourselves; more to taste and see and experience of Him.  So, while He created us to live in community and be in relationship with others, He also created us to only be completely satisfied in relationship with Him.  Those relationships are meant to point us to more of Him and His nature.  They are means to the most glorious end--knowing and loving our great God.  

Earnest Prayer for the Persecuted

 Yesterday I came across this verse in Acts 12:5

...So Peter was kept in prison, but earnest prayer

was made to God by the church....

How often do you think of other followers of Christ all over the world who are being daily tortured, beaten, murdered for the sake of the gospel?

Now, how often are you praying for them? 

I know that the answer for me is: little to never. And I'm ashamed of that.  Someday I am going to stand in the presence of these brothers and sisters, hearing their stories of how much they endured for the sake of Jesus Christ while I sat in the comfort and ease of America, neglecting to earnestly pray for them.

So, where do we begin?  What do we pray for?

Our first thought is to pray for the persecution to stop.  But, that's not what they want us to pray.

A few years ago, I had the privilege to be at a gathering of church leaders from all over the Middle East, Central Asia and North Africa--all home to some of the most persecuted believers in the world.  You would never know just by looking at their faces the torment and pain and fear that they face on a daily basis.  Without fail, each got up and asked for prayer for those they knew that were imprisoned or were facing death sentences. They asked for boldness and continued opportunities to share about Jesus.  What they never asked for was that the persecution would stop.  In fact, a man from Iran got up and said, "I know you'll be tempted to pray that we would be freed from persecution.  But, please do not pray for that.  Pray that persecution would continue, but that we would remain faithful in the midst of it and that God would use our suffering to advance the gospel."

What a stark contrast that is to our natural inclination to comfort and avoidance of anything even slightly painful. We have much to learn from their faith and perseverance.

Let us not neglect our brothers and sisters all over the world who, even now, are facing pain--even death--on account of Christ.  They need our earnest, consistent, bold prayers.  We serve the same God, no matter how great of a distance separates us. 

"...Keep alert with all perseverance, making supplication for all the saints, and also for me, that words may be given to me in opening my mouth boldly to proclaim the mystery of the gospel, for which I am an ambassador in chains, that I may declare it boldly, as I ought to speak..." {Philippians 6.18-21}

*Voice of the Martyr's is a great tool to get started praying for persecuted brothers and sisters.  They have an e-newsletter you can sign up for and send out daily tweets about the persecuted Church.